Unstuck

“It’s different for everyone. A flash — forward, backward. All of us, the entire station.  We’ve become unstuck in time, Commander. That’s why we have to get out of here quickly!”

— Major Krantz, Earthforce Commander, Babylon 4

And here is the problem. Not with the show or the episode, not even with @straczynski's writing and plotting. It is with each and every one of us. We are so stuck that we cannot adjust. We are rooted in the thought that things should be fixed in a certain linear order instead of being in the moment.

We are often depressed or anxious because we are not in our collective moments. We are looking to the future and becoming anxious. We are looking to the past and feeling regret.

I say, ‘we’ but I mean ‘me.’

Things are not as I have planned. It’s not all bad, mind you, but not as I planned. I was supposed to be in a different place and situation. I was supposed to be someone else.

Yet, here I am. I am the one who has remained to fight and survive. I am the one who has endured and been scarred.

The stories, the ones that you know, will speak for themselves. I have no desire to go over them or to rehash what has been. I cannot change the past. The best thing I can do is live in the now and build the future from the present.

Stability depends upon what is done now. Each piece placed on top of the next. The scaffold of the future depends upon it.

So, here I am, building again.

Slowly.

Surely.

With precise deliberation. With deliberate precision.

I’ve seen the results in my life when I do not apply myself and make the best choices I can in the moment. It is not pretty and rots the structure of my life.