Sips and Spoonfuls

I am in the middle of Week 1. I have 5 scars on my abdomen where the laparoscopic instruments penetrated my insides and removed tissue. I am off of Metformin and Humalog. I have a drastically reduced sliding scale to use on my Toujeo.

There is some pain. It is to be expected. My stomach was essentially burned and cauterized into a new shape. Much of it removed. The pain is not intolerable. Swallowing too much liquid at once also causes some distress. There is no chugging of anything.

My diet for the next few days consists of liquid. Protein shakes, broth, herbal tea, and sugar-free Jell-o are the fare. These and water.

I am relearning about hunger and what to recognize about it. It feels differently now. I know I have to ‘eat,’ but it’s more of a chore than it used to be. I suppose it’s for the best.

Throughout the process, I am sure that there will be more lessons, both physical and emotional. At the moment, I am in a void, not sure where to proceed. The idea is to let my body and mind heal.

For now, I continue on this seemingly silent path. Living by sips and eating by spoonfuls.